My life went from the highest of highs, to an extreme low over less than 2 months. I went from the best shape of my life, happier than ever before, to totally bed-ridden, writhing in pain daily, and my 6’2″ frame dropped from 178 down to 128 pounds and I brushed death very closely.
On 10/27/12 I had emergency surgery to remove my diseased large intestine. After months of painful recovery and learning about how to eat properly, I have regained all my weight and I feel as healthy and happy as ever, despite my so-called chronic condition.
Before this illness hit me, I was about to launch this website as my passion to help people experience the Truly Amazing Life I had been experiencing since December 2011. I created the poster you see on this site in April 2012 as my anchor and manifesto. It is what it’s all about for me. This poster came about through weeks of asking myself “why I am so thrilled to wake up each day?” These things are what bring me the deepest fulfillment and what I have decided everything in my life must line up with. Life was Truly Amazing.
But the illness quite suddenly took my circumstances on a tailspin out of control and my body was wracked with pain daily. Pain and despair did everything in their power to overtake me daily. One night I felt the urge to rip this poster in half and trash this website.
But I couldn’t do it. The truths I had come to know endured through the biggest test of my life by far. And the truth and importance of the words on this poster were proven even stronger. I was tested daily for months with severe pain, despair, and fear of dying and leaving my wife alone with our four young children. Did I believe and could I live these principles I desired to teach? I can’t say that I was successful every day. But the beliefs passed the test with flying colors.
And I am SO GRATEFUL that I had created this poster as an anchor to keep me reminded daily of what is true. That I alone am in control of my thoughts and nothing can take that agency from me. And I am determined more than ever to live these principles now. I now know that I must continue to believe that This Is A Truly Amazing Life. There is way too much to live for to give up on that belief.
For months I battled fear, discouragement, and doubt daily as I continued laid in bed in pain, often wanting to die. But Faith always prevailed somehow and eliminated the negative thoughts and feelings.